25 Days...Give or take a couple of hours.

In approximately 25 days, I'll be 40.  And I'm feeling good...

I've never felt the need to tell people that I'm just 29, or 25 and holding (which is what my mom tells people when they ask my age), age is just a number.  Honestly, my policy has always been, you are only as old as you feel.  Truthfully, I have never felt my age, 40, peesh, big deal.  Until I do, I'll keep acting like the immature brat that I am :)

My life is a decent one.  Yes, I live alone, and am slowly started turning into my reclusive grandmother (that's one that I do plan on changing), work 3ish jobs (all of which I enjoy!) to get by, but I'm loved, I'm close with my family and I have friends that I'd die for, I pay my bills (mostly on time LoL), and I have a roof over my head.  My only "regret" and I use that word lightly since I'm also a firm believer that you should regret nothing...everything you have done previously in your life, has made you into the person you are (Karma/Fate/Universe has a way to make things be what they should be)...is that I haven't accomplished more in my life. 

When I was younger, hell even when I got old enough to be responsible, I always thought that I was going to travel the world, live in a studio apartment in NY, and still backpack through Europe, try to climb Everest, see all of the 7 wonders of the world...  Who knows, maybe one day I will be able to afford to do these, traveling to/living in Scotland and Italy are still on my Bucket List, and I'm far from dead yet!  I always thought that I would earn my degree and be a teacher or do something fabulous with the theaters in NY or Chicago.  Sigh... Again maybe one day I will be able to afford this, but with the life I lead now, I'm not sure that will happen anytime soon.  And lastly, I always thought that I'd be married to someone wonderful and have a son, instead, I have 2 fur-babies that adore me.  This is something again, that plausibly could happen, but NOT one that I'm holding my breath on.

I have always striven to be someone that others would be proud of.  I know that's not always where I have landed, but ultimately I've worked towards that goal, and for the most part I've succeeded on that one. Starting another decade doesn't scare me as much as I think that it should...

So, what's this Ramble about?   I really don't know... Maybe there's not a point other than I'm getting older.  I could say that it's about this year's "resolution."  Live life more fully and maybe make myself use my age more responsibly?  (Nah, I'm going to go with the former, no point, just another year.  But I will also agree that this year I am going to try to make some better choices and live the life I thought I was going to have when I was younger, Dragon Con over Labor Day -- here I come!)

Until next time...Ciao